dear diary...✍️

12/28/2024

today i got my very first tattoo, a beautiful star from a very cute xmas flash sheet at a local tattoo place where i live. it isn't very christmas-y in the slightest either. i adore stars and planets and such, so i thought it would be a wonderful first tattoo. (believe me when i say i was so close to getting puffy coat snoopy. alas...maybe next time.)

when the artist said it hurts less than a piercing, he was absolutely right! (i have multiple piercings so i can atest to this.) i don't regret it for a second and can't wait for my next one(s) as i have a few ideas cooking in the ol brain pain, a few tht have been sitting around for awhile, i just never had the courage to go thru with them. but now i'm very glad to say i do! :^)

01/11/2025

today i had to let my best fishy friend ziggy go. over the past few days he had gotten sick with something, which had caused him to stay at the bottom of his bowl and curl up. thinking it might be a swim bladder issue (with fish it's so hard to tell what exact the issue could be, so it truly could have been anything) i tried a number of things i could think of, but to no avail. i had cleaned his tank a few days prior, so i figured it couldn't be an issue caused by a dirty living space. he hadn't been eating this whole time either despite my best efforts to feed him. in the end, i didn't want to watch him suffer anymore. it wasn't fair to him or me.

seeing his empty tank really hurts. i won't get to see him get excited for a feeding, or talk to him all the time anymore. i know losing a fish isn't considered "as big a deal" as losing a dog or cat, but it sure as hell hurts just as much. i got him in 2022 watched him move from tiny bowl to a spacious tank. visiting friends always loved to say hello to him, and a regular patron work always ask how he's doing anytime she sees me. he was well cared for and extremely loved. i will miss you dearly zig. please know i tried my best to help you and that i love you very much. 🧡🐟